Its been a long time since I felt proud of something I have achieved (other than being a Mum). Two years ago, in what I now call my past life, I was uninspired, had no self esteem, and lacked confidence to really do anything, and most shockingly I was cameraless. I lost a lot those 2 years ago, the life that I had planned along with a lot of the people in it. With the support of a very loving family and extended family (my parents friends are a wonderful part of my life) and of course the adoring eyes of a little angel, I got through what was probably the lowest point in my life. I began working again after my mat leave and was in a staff with a head teacher that was totally high on life (and sometimes coffee). I bought my first DSLR and started snapping. Then under my belt I got myself a mentor CASPIX, who guided me in a lot of obstacles and kept me focussed that I can do it if I am passionate enough. The passion was there, but still the confidence lagged. For so long I wanted praise off the people I looked up to in the Photography world. Then after a year I looked back on all the photographs I had taken and saw a vast improvement. Confidence started to build back. Along with that I gained a few more friends who understood me, and have been great support and encouraging in all aspects of my life. Self Esteem started to rise, and it felt good. Then the Big Trip OS, something that I had never dreamed of, or ever thought would happen in my life. Certainly wouldnt have in my past life. The experiences I had, and being able to take Lily on this journey aswell was a once in a lifetime opportunity. What I gained from this trip was so much more than the extra kilo’s that are still around my waist. Seeing the Mona Lisa and the Eiffel Tour, oh words cant even describe it. On my return I was asked to be artist of the month at the library. I organised myself and got it ready for August. I didnt really think of it as a big deal, but once I saw my work on the walls I felt so proud of myself. There in front of me is not just two years of hard work in my photography but in front of me was so many achievements. Through the belief and encouragement from others I have become who I am today, their kind words and inspiration became my backbone which today has allowed me to hold my head up high and shoot for the starts. Last night gathered at the library were my family, extended family and friends. It was a moment in time that solidified I have made it through the worst, followed my dreams, and have come out happy, joyful and confident in my life as a Mother, Daughter, Teacher and Photographer and now “Artist”. I will continue my journey with Photography which is now a part of my life, and is now part of who I am.
Big Kisses to all of you that have been part of this journey. It really means the world to me that you believe in me.
by Skye Nestler
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